The Last Fucking ...... I´m Wasting On You
The Last Fucking song, tear, feeling, thought....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4YkU8CKt3rU
Sparkling grey,
They're my own veins.
Any more than a whisper,
Any sudden movement of my heart.
And I know, I know I'll have to watch them pass away
Just get through this day
Give up your way, you could be anything,
Give up my way, and lose myself, not today
That's too much guilt to pay
Sickened in the sun
You dare tell me you love me
But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
Honey you know, you know I'd never hurt you that way
You're just so pretty in your pain
Give up my way, and I could be anything
I'll make my own way
Without your senseless hate... hate... hate... hate.
So run, run, run
And hate me, if it feels good.
I can't hear your screams anymore
You lied to me
But I'm older now
And I'm not buying baby
Demanding my response
Don't bother breaking the door down
I found my way out
And you'll never hurt me again.
Jag bara stumbled upon den här gamla låten - som jag alltid älskat. Och som i ett trollslag förstår jag den med helt andra ögon. Eller kanske öron.
Att be en annan människa att ge upp sig själv - är inte att älska. Och jag gick min egen väg. Jag gav inte upp den. För ingen. För den är en del av mig. Och tvingar du mig att välja - så väljer jag alltid den väg jag skapat själv.
Det är den som är jag. Och kan du inte älska mig på dem premisserna - så älskar du inte mig. Och du ljög för mig - kanske för dig själv med - men jag är som sagt äldre nu och jag köper det inte längre... Och du kommer aldrig att såra mig igen. Aldrig.
Slutet gott, allting gott - för nu behöver jag aldrig mer tänka tanken "tänk om". För jag vet redan att jag älskar mig själv, min väg och MINA HUNDAR. Och det är min väg!!! Den jag valt och skapat själv - för mig själv.
Repeat
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me
With someone disappointed in you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be¨
&
This is my December, this is my time of the year
This is my December, this is all so clear
This is my December, this is my snow covered home
This is my December, this is me alone
And I
(Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed)
And I
(Take back all the things I said to make you feel like that)
And I
(Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed)
And I
(Take back all the things that I said to you)
And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
This is my December
These are my snow covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need
And I
(Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed)
And I
(Take back all the things I said to make you feel like that)
And I
(Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed)
And I
(Take back all the things that I said to you)
And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
